Today was hard. Bree is officially a toddler. She was throwing tantrums one after another today. I don't know what to do. I try to ignore them but that doesn't help, I tried yelling, that makes it worse . I know spanking wont help. blah!! I asked the ladies on the board and they said its normal. So I guess this is just a stage. Great!

Im always afraid I'm spoiling her. Before I had Bree I was so critical of other parents and the way they did things. I thought I knew everything. I could just smack myself now! I was one of those childless experts! LOL I guess I need to work on being less judgmental. Why do I have to learn things the hard way?

Im really dreading seeing Steves family this Christmas. They are the type who believe children should be seen and not heard. And my annoying sister in law is a teacher (no kids) and thinks she is an expert on raising children because she has a bachelors degree. Shes a nutcase. I don't want Bree to be the annoying spoiled brat no one wants to be around. But I don't want her to be a little beat down kid. Im having such a hard time finding a balance. Its like the whole hitting thing. My mom told me today that she has "a very bad habit of hitting." I don't think its a habit. I think its just a stage..I can tell her not to hit until I'm blue in the face. Shes just gonna hit me again. Or say "no" right back to me. aghhh! I need a good book to read. Anyone recommend any parenting books?

Im totally going on and on. Im gonna go work out. That always helps clear my mind.